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[This is a long post. I consciously decided however not to put it under a cut, because I wanted it to be read. My apologies for any inconvenience to you or the Mods.]
I found myself upset, today. Frustrations of any kind of lack of interaction, feedback, constructive criticism, or anything on my fancomic are really starting to get to me, at this point.
Now, I myself am an amateur webcomic artist. It's a completely different medium and despite being fairly competent at art, webcomics are a whole other world to me. I didn't expect so many roadblocks to come to fruition; "Do I draw it like this? No. ...How about that? URGH." Despite this, I try to stay positive, interactive, improve over time, and encourage people to approach me with whatever inquiries they might have about the fancomic.
I understand that the world of art is cut-throat-- everyone's just trying to swim to the top, in the end. (I sort of hate that mentality, but whatever.) Despite whatever age or talent one has, I try to encourage other people to keep going, especially if it's artists I really end up liking, in the end.
Maybe I'm not on the best platform for promoting. Tumblr is a cesspool of toxic behavior and everyone is far too busy to take a few minutes out of their day arguing about the smallest issues to give someone any kind of encouragement or feedback.
Maybe I didn't choose the best subject. Original content is where it's at these days and me choosing a fanmade concept that's decades old probably throws me out of the loop, alone. (Despite Star Trek getting a new series and it being hotter than ever because of that.)
Maybe I'm just doing something wrong. In my anxiety I think to myself, "Am I posting things correctly? Annoying other people? Are people spreading rumors about me? Is that why things seems so... stiff...?" (It's not good to think like this, by the way.)
No one can truly ever improve without persistence and feedback. I think this, and have and will always think this.
...But it goes both ways. Obviously.
Since we live in a world where jobs suck but at least we can pay our bills off with varying evolving mediums, despite being so diluted, art is one of those mediums and if one cares for it, things can and will come. I've been considering what I can do to receive some actual feedback and exposure for what I do, because as it stands, I still feel as if there's some small bubble I still live in despite my numerous attempts at interaction. (I've even been considering commissions.) However... obviously, if I don't receive feedback, I'm going to seem like I'm floundering around like a moron trying to find out what in the name of all that is good in the world I'm doing wrong, or right, or ANYTHING.
Now, I could sound... unfair to some. After all, I've kinda just started off? I don't have ALL the tools I want to make a fancomic in the way I want to do it, which is to stick to inking Traditionally? (Other than Fakemon, I'm kinda 50/50 with Digital, so I prefer to work with my strengths.) ...But I try my best. (I use normal-old printer paper, by the way. The struggle is real.) I don't post art often, but I'm also trying to rectify that...? I look at my art and think "This is good. Could be better, but... this is good." Then I see other artist and think "Wow... if only I was in their shoes. If only I was that talented. ...How can I become that talented...?" I see the Reblogs. Obviously more than mine, even if its ten or a hundred. And it... is really discouraging. To return back to a void, as if one has just walked into a hollow, empty house.
"...Well. Might as well not post. People won't like/see it, anyway..." Not a good and healthy mentality to have; I know. My current go-to inspirations at this point for drawing this comic is; KirkisaJerk (ST artist mainly), MyNameisMad (Draws SAKANA and other things), and Tezuma Osaka (binged Black Jack the TV show again). I have many, MANY more artists that I look up to, though. To assure you all though-- I still do think I can, and will, get better.
...But I cannot always stand back up on my own. It gets tougher, and tougher, and tougher to stand back up on my own, after a while. I am one person. Despite being supported by my family, especially my brother, it's still... hard.
There are multiple times I wanted to give up. Multiple times when I said to myself "[Insert Artist Here] Should be drawing this, not me. Maybe then people would like it..." There are multiple times I would look at a freshly inked or finished page and say "...I hate this." My self-made schedule of finishing pages nine days sooner and getting up at least around 9:00AM would slide around irregularly. Again, not something to think about, but I think even people who don't suffer with depression and anxiety think like this.
So obviously the question is; "What can/should I do?"
I came from a different world, I suppose. Relic Castle really gave me that push that I needed. Within almost a year I believe, my improvements for drawing Fakemon and Mapping skyrocked. It was amazing; I was at the top of the world. ...Okay, sort of. I still had a lot to learn and, in the end, Pokemon Opal didn't work out. Heck, I still find myself looking at old maps and saying "This should be bigger. I should adjust that-- wait."
However I still feel incredibly thankful to you all because you guided me without question, was harsh but fair at rare occasions, and gave some solid constructive criticism that really made me think twice about my methods. And despite having been on Tumblr for a while, I hadn't received any kind of real support like that until I joined Relic. Sure, people follow me, but they don't REALLY care about me (except Oripoke).
I think that's one of the reasons I came back, after a while. Here, there's not the constant doom and gloom of stepping on someone else's toes. There's not fighting near-constant small arguments that does not, and never will, matter. There's not internal strife and internet jargon that I don't care for. Just some good, honest, people. Wish more communities like that existed, it's a bit unfortunate, but I think they're out there; just harder to find.
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Anyway... I'm sorry I rambled again. I know it's agitating to you all. I don't think there's anything else to say here. After writing all that out, I feel a bit better. I was inking a new page and just... crying. NBD. It happens. ...I might be going to the Zoo next week though, so there's that.
To sum up: This thread is mainly here to discuss feedback/criticism, different forms of feedback, and how it impacts different and certain communities. I personally find that small-time artists need the support more than big-time artists, because big-time artists will have that vehement support no matter what. If you're a struggling or starving artist out there just starting or even doing your thing for years-- I think this may appeal more to them, but anyone is welcome to respond.
To sum up: This thread is mainly here to discuss feedback/criticism, different forms of feedback, and how it impacts different and certain communities. I personally find that small-time artists need the support more than big-time artists, because big-time artists will have that vehement support no matter what. If you're a struggling or starving artist out there just starting or even doing your thing for years-- I think this may appeal more to them, but anyone is welcome to respond.
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